Thursday, April 6, 2017

Generation Y

Millennials - (Birth between 1980s to mid-1990s to early 2000s) Known as the generation that was born into the boom of technology and has used it to their advantage.

Being a part of this generation has been the best. I have been able to carry a CD player, an iPod shuffle, an iPod nano, all the way up to now a Samsung Galaxy S7 to listen to music, and it's all within the span of less than 10 years. As technology starts to grow, so does my generation's thoughts and ways of life. For example, YouTube. YouTube was not known for quite a while and just a site that very few visited and has now evolved to make people's dreams come true. There are people who post on there and are getting paid per view, per ad, per comment or whatever it may be, to the point where their job is now posting videos whenever they feel like it and are getting paid for it. It amazes me because growing up, we didn't have this. I was always told that you go to school to get an education so you can then be certified to work a 9-5 job and do that for the rest of your life. I sat there thinking. The rest of my life. Wow. I'm not even 25 yet and I want to burst into tears at the thought of that. So by this standard, I would have to work for somebody else.. for 8 hours per day, 40 hours per week, with a minimum of 2 weeks of vacation out of 52 possible weeks in the year, with some leeway of sick time.. and to do this for 40 more years? Until I retire at 65? Do you know how crazy that sounds? I just cannot believe that people actually do this. I've already worked for almost 10 years of my life and I already can't wait to retire.

What bothers me the most about having a job is the fact that I have a boss. By boss, I mean somebody who can just pick me up and put me wherever they please and I have to do it because that's what they're paying me to do. I use to not care but it's really starting to bother me more and more. The fact that I can't do anything about it, is what is really irritating me. But I also see this as a blessing. Had I not had that thorn in my side, I would have never tried to explore other options. With my generation because so versatile in technology and expanding with social media, I have been experimenting the same route. If they can do it, so can I. Right?! I don't know what God has in store for me but I see everything as a sign and a blessing. I will take everything as it comes and thank Him along the way. We'll just have to see what comes out of it! I'm excited!


Sunday, April 2, 2017

Used.

"Covjek te cijeni onoliko koliko ima koristi od tebe." (A man only values you as much as he benefits from you.)

It's funny how your perception of someone is one way but it turns out to be completely different. I've built many relationships and friendships in my life with the intention of having a mutual trust and care for one another, whether it be a friend or family, or significant other, my intentions are true. I have always been the type of person to keep to myself so anybody wanting to get close to me would have to pry open my 50 million walls before they truly know me. Some of the people I know and talk to on a daily basis still don't even know me. I don't think there is a single soul that I can say truly knows me, other than my family.

Because I am a caring person, I get taken advantage of, a lot. I've found, funny enough, that people are only there for me when they need something from me. However, when the opposite comes along and I'm in need of their help, they are nowhere to be found. I know it's a saying and something girls put as their Instagram quotes, but I've had it happen one too many times to say that it's just cliche. There are far too many fake people that are too selfish and care for their own interests, to care for yours. For example, I had a friend who's close family member passed away. I consoled them, cared for them, even cried with them. When my cousin died, I heard nothing from this so-called "friend". Yet they expect you to still be there for them and care for them even though they refuse to reciprocate the same respect and care back. This is just one example but it's happened far too many times. It just confirms that humans are selfish and their own needs always overcome others, but perhaps I'm befriending the wrong people. I'm not saying I'm perfect but I've sat back and just watched it happened to me and can't help but think how some people's needs will always be above yours, no matter how much they say they care for you. If you're lucky enough to find the few that truly care for you and will be there for you, hold on to them because those gems are rare.


Tuesday, March 28, 2017

Coconut Oil

You know that dad in My Big Fat Greek Wedding that thinks Windex is the solution to any issue? Well, I'm him but with coconut oil. Ask any girl and they will let you know how coconut oil does wonders. There are so many great uses and so many benefits that it's unbelievable how amazing it works. It's organic, non-GMO, and has no harsh chemicals or toxins. I didn't believe it so I had to try it for myself. I've used it as a moisturizer, a makeup remover, cuticle substitute, and as a hair mask. I'm actually sitting with it as a hair mask as I'm typing this post. I think it's so great that I've posted a video below showing all the different uses. I usually get it at Sprouts, but I've also found one recently at Walmart and I'm sure Whole Foods and Trader Joe's has them as well. It's becoming so popular that I wouldn't be surprised that they're in every store.


Wednesday, March 15, 2017

Reflections of a Man

I was looking through Pinterest and stumbled along a quote that caught my eye. I didn't think anything of it when one of my Instagram followers posted a similar quote, with the book title "Reflections of a Man" and how an amazing of a book it was. I did a lot of googling and eventually, (a day later) bought the book through Amazon.

This is such an incredible book and very eye opening. For the girl out there that needs guidance, for the relationship with confusion, and for the guy who's just not getting it, this book is for you. For me, it reminds me to be cautious with my heart. I have not found the love of my life yet but the little reminders give me hope. My absolute favorite quote from this book is as follows:

"Somewhere out there, there's a good man just as frustrated as you are that he has not found you yet; be patient. He won't give up on you.. don't you dare give up on him."

Yes. He IS out there. I cannot give up, settle, or doubt that he's not out there because hope is what keeps us going. I don't know when I'll meet him or who he'll be but I just have this feeling that I'll know. Until then, I am going to work on me and when God is ready for us to meet, it will be one of the happiest days of my life! Can't wait! 

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Tuesday, March 14, 2017

Weight a Minute

Weight has always been an issue for me. I was born underweight and I've always been skinny my whole life. I was constantly getting made fun of, with people asking why i'm so skinny and if I need to eat and why I have no curvature. It really irritated me because in this society, it's okay to ask a skinny person why they're skinny but absolutely not okay to ask a fat person why they're fat. It's a double standard. But anyway, that was my life up to the age of 21. My cousin passed away in 2013 and ever since then, the pounds have started to glue to me. I remember once sitting and watching TV and feeling so down that I ate an entire large pizza by myself. I went from 120lbs to 140lbs in a little over a year. I didn't know stress could change your entire body. Ever since then, it's been one stressful thing after another. From the cousin passing away, school not going well, not being able to find a job, having negative people in my life, always feeling down, finally finding a job and learning everything about it, and then attempting to start school again, it was one stress ball after another. I have tried to stay positive throughout the whole time.

I am not ashamed to say that currently I am 5 foot, 7 inches at 150lbs. I know what you're thinking - that's totally normal, what are you complaining about? Well to me, being at 120lbs my entire life and suddenly gaining 30lbs in a little over 3 years is a major shock. I remember the days when I was so skinny and prayed to God to gain some weight so other people wouldn't make fun of me. I mean, every time someone saw me, they would make some rude comment about how skinny I was. Someone even once said that if I turned sideways, I would disappear. *Insert rolling eyes emoji*

Now, I love my curves. I am SO happy that I was finally able to have some shape. I look back and wish I was at that number but then again I'm okay that I'm not. I would absolutely love to lose 15-20lbs but I'm also okay with where I'm at. Weight is just a number. It does not define you. I've made a deal with God that I promise to take care of myself & love myself, and that I will not step on the scale anymore. I know he has good plans for me, I just have to be patient. 

I was recently reading Jaclyn Hill's sister (Rachel)'s blog where she talks about her weight. She said something that really stood out to me.


Maybe one day, I will get back to 120lbs, but today is not that day. I'm ok with my curvy butt and my thick thighs. I will flaunt them and always love them no matter what size they are. So for those of you worrying about your weight and constantly stressing about not being the "perfect" size, it's okay. It's not worth the stress. Weight is weight. There are far more important things in life to worry about.. like that slice of pizza. Eat it. Love yourself and know that you are always beautiful!